Mixed Feelings~
Omg omg! Im starting to get excited.. Eerr for nothing actually. Oh well its better to be happy then sad right? *skips.ard.the.house.and.comes.back to the.com*
Today's sunday is nice. Mummy and grannie not working. So at noon mummy, grannie, my sis and me went to 'shop & save' store to shop for our daily necessities. After that we took taxi and went to my first uncle hse at woodland, haa my grannie didnt follow (she wanted to rest). Yay so mummy, my sis and me had lunch over der. My aunt cooked mee bandung, yummy. So after eating my sis excuse herself and went to the living room and played with my cousins. Hahar while me... I joined the adults, mummy, aunt and uncle. Woaah the conversation was like darn cool la. Guess wad we talked about?!?!
First topic was abt gays and leshbian (cool rite??) and OMG! My aunt works at the mediacorp there and she noes this guy (and NOW A WOMAN!!) who actually went to america to err... err... err... you know... change that 'thing' to a women one. Sheesh~ Btw that HE/SHE is a make-up artist at mediacorp. Then aft that we talk about death. *shakes.head* My mum's work place got two person hang themselve to death at home. One woman and one man. The woman, she got breast cancer, while the man, dont know. Sheesh may they rest in peace. Seriously death is NOT the solution to your problems. Haa nvm, im still young but soon i'll face the world and thats when the challenge begins.
Umm then aft that we talk abt our family affairs. Haa i feel so sad suddenly went we talk abt my granpa... Haiz you know my granpa got married with this indonesia women (i heard she's ard my mum's age, WTH!) and from then on i sort of hated my granpa. I used to be his favourite but not now anymore. Yah since he re-married, i went to his hse and took back all the photos that contains my face. See im actually those stubborn type one. Then my aunt told me something that i dont know. She told me few weeks back she visited my granpa. Then he took out some photo albums, but at a rate when my aunt finish looking at only ONE album, my granpa quickly took it AWAY and put back in his cupboard and then he will take out another one. So the steps just repeat itself la, one by one... And my aunt says the album was full of my picture... My aunt rmb that one album was when my granpa took me and my sis to the swimming pool...
Now, as im typing all this i feel like crying... I still keep the 15 odd barbie dolls that my granpa bought for me when i was young that time... I actually promised to give it to firzanah (my aunts daughter) but guess i'll have to break it... And deep down my heart, and beneath all those hatred... I still do love my granpa... I wished i had the courage to go up to him and say sorry and i still do love him... Before its too late...
*wipes.her.tears.away* Good night evryone...
