Wad I Reli Wanna Do... For Now...
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Im not pretty sure why those tears have been accumulating in my eyes. And i cant help it but to hold them back, fight them back. Why am i doing tis? Holdin those tears back? Cos im afraid, maybe. Or am i jus acting strong. Im feeling so vunerable right now. More like miserable... But deep down inside of me, i reli feel like crying, letting all my fears, worries, sorrows and almost evrything out. Im feeling all the pressure, pushing me hard down all of a sudden. Yah i noe, i cant escape reality cos all tis isnt a dream. It isnt sposed to be a dream. Its reality im facing. And its always the effort tat you put in will change the things ard you. Once again, as im typing all tis, my throat felt so tight and dry, i felt butterflies in my stomach and of course... Those tears, which seems to have no more patience already. I reli need a good cry. And a shoulder too, i guess...
